REEELINK!
happydisconnectedemo.blogspot.com (:

its over, we're over.
and so is this fcking blog.
but ive found a blog that just makes me feel in place.
if you're someone like me; you'd go too.
sam-and-ash.blogspot.com
for emo people.
and for their friends.
i love samantha & ashley.
& you should too.

and remember.
un-link me.
takecare

nikita's bday((:

YAY the party's like; OVER.
now im damn tired. blahblah.
tammy&ryan showed up;
but not lar* OR sharie. GRR.
anyways...
ALEX THE MAGICIAN came.
err?
i like his shoes tho. LOL!

and the magic words were;
HEY KUCCI KUCCI ???


& he made balloons for everyone!
EXCEPT THE CAMERA WOMAN.
(which happens to be ME. GRR.)

hey; even grownups got ok!!!


& these are some of nikita's good friends...

HANAN.


this is the wonderful MEWTWO cake.
errrr.



umm anyways here's tammy&ryan&me;


YALAH YALAH SWEET LAH. WHATEVER LAH.
THEY CAME HOLDING HANDS; I KNOW. T.T
& well here are me & two of my closest cousins.



ok ok they're hot yayaya. (:


OK BEHIND THE SCENES.



ummmmmmmmmmm thats all lahs.
& me & atiqah(also one of e closest cuzS) were cam-whoring.
(& maybe going to AGAIN)




but i think this is still the best pic yet;
DUCKY ME.
lalala.




ahahahas. anyways about yesterday; i wish we had taken more pics. ):


& lastly;
it's BARBIE!! LOL. ((((((:

CHURCH

to think i slept at 1 am;
and got up at 8 am;
YAWN.

my sister's party after this. DAMN; i'll be tired.
i'll blog bout that later.
anyways now; about church.

okay it was SO not what i thought it was; but it was okay. the songs were kinda nice; and it was well; fun. but the singer was kinda emo & really deep; and he freaked me out a bit. yeahs.

well bel; or isabel; i think?
she's really friendly. just like lar* said. (:
erm. bridgett?
she's friendly too.
mel is hawt. LOL.
cristy is hawt too!
(no i'm not lesbian)
to be frank; i was actually looking forward to see oreal.
but she didn't turn up. LOL.
well and there's this other girl;
P...P... whats it? um i forgot.
well lar* and i felt that she was into shahari. LOLs!
well it's DAMN OBVIOUS LA!
well lucky him. HAHA.

umm yeahs.
but before church;
i went to lar*'s house. & was having HAIR crisis. seriously.
and i wanted to cut part of my hair.
lar* went; ok ok wait ar.
`cos she was on the comp.
i waited for one hour until 5.30pm.
"lar*; it's 5.30."
and she was like;
"oh ya! let's go!"
and i screamed; "MY HAIR!!!"
and we burst out laughing.
ahaha.

anyways then;
lar*; me; shahari & stefano went to eat.
DAMNIT i was emo.
but i'll spare the details.
(malu lah)
but it went ok in the end.
on the way to church;
bumped into RACHEL; BIXIA & um..i forgot who?
shit; lol.
they were shocked lahhs of course.
but it was funny.
LOL.
okokok.

& in the end;
since we were at yishun;
shahari was going to AMK
& i was going to ADMIRALTY.
sad; right.
but he sent me home!
(i hate him `cos he doesn`t have a curfew. GRR.)
it was kinda sweet la; LOL.
& well yeahs. that.
but the last part at the gate was awkward.
don't worry; NOTHING HAPPENED.
(so much for the suspense; huh. LOL)

yeahs well.
lar* says that maybe we'll go next next week;
ohwell; i'll see.
& thank you to shahari for sending me home.



ok WHATEVER.
takecare ppl!

smile

im happy.

band.

had BAND today!
and punishment;
but never mind la.
the first part of the day was..
um; okay lahs.
but the guys were idiots lahs.
they asked us what boxes we wanted;
and well we said;
"five; six; seven;"
and when jasmine asked to settle down;
the guys were like
"ah? i don't know; your box? ah?"

and well kally & me had to take the instruments ourselves;
and make the whole band wait.
MALU LAHS!

anyway i got the tuning note right!
then sheng wei or james tried playing and the sound was damn funny.
cos the instrument needed repairing.
haha; so funny.

then jiayi was tuning qianning;
and alex was walking about.
jiayi went;
"alex! sit down!"
and well; everyone laughed.

anyways;
then learnt a music piece.
damn nice (:

and well; kally was stuck on the first few bars.
but JIAYOU!
you'll make it, kally hunny!
(:

and i got the melody part right! happy happy!
sufiandi laugh at me don't know how many times.
GRR.


but the practice was only two hours.
which is; damn short.
and good. ahahas.
well till here about band. (:

in her eyes.

a torn page.
DRIP

She keeps crying. But she doesn't know why. Everything's just so perfect. But everytime; something just has to pop up. Will this simple heart break and melt away like all the others? It's impossible to live a perfect life; she thought to herself. If everything was amazing for a day; she'd kiss the feet of her sworn enemy. If love had a meaning. If love was an essential for everyone; would the world become better? All the shame and all the embarrassment in the world. Mixed feelings. She tried so hard; just to convince herself that everything's going to be okay. She looks at the world; at how people think it's crazy and just fucking stupid to commit suicide. Life's taking a really big turn; and she's done nothing wrong. In the dim light of a candle; she sits alone. Hoping that one day; she'll find her peace and that she'll find her rights. She just lets the day go on; where other people enjoy and scream out loud. She knows people will think she's stupid; and just damn emotional. Some would even think she's just lame; wasting her time. But do they know how this little heart feels. She's trying to change; but she doesn't want to. What should she do. She doesn't want to lose everything that she has.

Which in real life;

is nothing.


If the sun shined on her
She would still be alive
If the rain hadn't been so hard on her
She'd be able to smile
She wasn't a loser
A freak; An ass
She wasn't bullied
Wasn't hurt; killed
If her one true friend
Hadn't been so conservative
Hadn't been hiding all alone
She wouldn't have ended up here
If she had shown up
Instead of hide in a stupid corner
All day long
Just to watch her tears
Drip drip drip

6.51

today;
was FUN.
LOLS.

um firstly in the morning.
okay this was irritating.
GRRR.
i was supposed to meet FAZ at eleventhirty at AMK station.

then JENNA got bored at home;
so she wanted to tag along.
i waited at yishun mrt station for a good twenty minutes;
till around eleventhirtyfive.

and i thought FAZ was already at AMK.
and since FAZ didn't have a handphone;
that meant waiting for me without knowing where i was.
so when queen jenna finally arrived;
i was about to scold her buckets full;
i got a call from sufiandi.

"Nicole; kau kat mane?"

har? yishun mrt lahhs.
and he started walking towards me.

he was wearing huge sunglasses.
a side-bag; an oversized t-shirt
a pair of jeans and a belt.

errrmmm.
not the usual sufiandi you would see.
but his hair made him look HOT.
but yeah; that's about it.
well even though he looked kinda gay,
he looked so much better!
and he was like;

"I saw your other friend."

i was thinking; FAZ?
and the three of us walked all the way to the other end and POOF.
there was FAZ.
oh GOD.
FAZ was just as late!
if queen jenna had come earlier;
we would have been waiting for FAZ.
GRRRR. double GRRRR.

anyways then we borded the MRT which wasn't really full. hahas.
we dropped at AMK;
whereas sufiandi continued to BUGIS.
(so damn fcking fun rightttt??? GRRR.)

so wells i went to school to hand up my SL form lahhs.
then we went to eat; the three of us.
blahblahblah.
then this queen jenna wanted to meet king gabriel chia.
so we met him; and she pang seh me!!!
$$%^^&*#

okay whatever lahs. then me and FAZ went to LARA's crib.
got this STEFANO and his friend lahs. errr.
anyways then they left and we SCREAMED LIKE GIRLS when LARA & STEFANO hugged!!!
(wait; we ARE girls. okay =.-)

then at 3.45pm
there was this reality ghost thing on the phillipines channel.
and well POLA screamed all the way
AND INTO MY EAR!
ahahaha!!!!!
but i still love her and normally i'd get irritated with screaming people;
but her screams somehow dont bother me.
LOLs!
<3 her.



and there was this freakish part where EVEN FAZ screamed!
lol.
so funny sia.

anyways then i had to go home and look at this pic;


potbellied geeks.
it works, doesnt it.
(:

anyways well thats all fer today.
sighs.

ohyeahhs.
gotta tell you bout this particular someone.
i dont hate her la;
(its not about the one i used to write about. its someone else (: )

but sometimes she thinks she's on top of the world.
and she boasts like nobody's business.
LOL.
damn funny how you turn around and people's rolling eyes at her.
HAHAHA.
and well sometimes she disses you.
and she expects YOU to give in.
what the heck?
hahaha.
im not angry at her.
but i think she's a REAL COMIC CHARACTER.
she's like fcking funny lah.
see how she thinks she's the best.
my toes can laugh. (((:
and for people who know who im talking about;
you know what i mean!

so takecare peeps!