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As I rest against this cold, hard wall
Will you pass me by?
Will you criticize me as I sit and cry?
I had fought so hard and thought that all my battles had been won
Only to find the war has just begun

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

Will my weakness for an hour make me suffer for a lifetime?
Is there anyway to be made whole again?
If I'm healed,renewed, and find forgiveness find the strength I've never had
Will my scars forever ruin all God's plan?

Is He not strong enough?
Is He not pure enough?
To break me, pour me out, and start again
Is He not brave enough?
To take one chance on me
Please can I have one chance to start again?

He took my life into his hands and it turned it all around
In my most desperate circumstance
It's there I've finally found

That You are strong enough
That You are pure enough
To break me, pour me out and start again
That You are brave enough
To take one chance on me
Oh Thank You for my chance to start again

hey people.. my blog has been dead for a week. well...

i wanna ask you guys this question.
how does it feel to be broken?
everything just doesn't go right ..
like, everyone around you is just doing their own stuff
then you feel so alone.

everyone(except few) is happy.
they got SO many stories to tell.
everytime they go "hey! i tell you something kay!"
then the grumpy cranky ones go on writing
on a piece of paper
"my group members are blady blady blah.."
and they snap all the way.
but most of the people are happy.
they smile till their jaws hurt.

why can't I feel that happiness?
why must I always be the unlucky one?
is this what I deserve?
does God understand what i'm feeling?
or am i just plain fated to BE unlucky?

will my weakness for an hour
make me SUFFER for a lifetime ..

why must all this happen to me?
what did i do?
why must i be so unlucky?


i don't have everything. i don't have anything.
i'm just living my life, the way it goes.
when everyone's are eventful and happening..
mine is just...plain...
IM A FOLLOWER.
you can call me that.

i go with the flow.
i got no opinions.
cos now im AFRAID.
afraid to voice myself out.

afraid that some people will call me lame.
afraid to say the wrong thing.
afraid that i'll suffer even more.


im just not..


not strong enough...

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you kno i discovered wht friends and families are.

this is me and one of my VERRYYY best friends. the other two are JENNA AND JENNIFER.
this is kimberley.


my lovely dad.


and i LOVE you, grandma. FOREVER.

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yay! double digits!
spread the hate number TENNNNN

kk. these are the beautiful fireworks day-photos.








oh yahh. and when i was sitting down in the MRT, there was this CUTE CUTE girl standing at the pole beside me
LOOK!



ohyah then was sharing earpiece with sufiandi. then was falling asleep then he played the JAGUAR ADVERTISTMENT one where got the scary scary face come out then got a scream tht give you a shock. HE GO PLAY LORH!
wahlao..hahas kk thts all fer number ten..

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i think it's nine.. lol.
kk here are the SUFIANDI pics.
(he's just my senior ok?)

vain, right ?





haix. dunnoh luh .
seniors will be seniors .
ahahas.

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NDP DEYI MILITARY BAND!

omg. so proud of today. LAST ROUND of the SYF 8 mins. my siti ma'm talked to us before everything and i cried. i am SO gonna miss her. actually i think im gonna miss every senior tht graduates. really. cos through their scolding, our misunderstandings, everything. they were the ones that made my journey in band, never forgotten. on farewell night i think im gonna cry for siti ma'm. she's one of the best seniors you can get.

she makes me happy in band. makes me smile. and she told me. the whole section actually, but i felt it luh.

"NOTHING IS BETTER THAN BEING HAPPY ALWAYS"

siti ma'm, if you are reading this, i wanna tell you tht i love you. and i will NEVER forget you. ever.


for mimi... OOPS. i mean SUHAIMI. haha. im gonna miss you loads too. arhahas.


when my qianning ma'm graduates nxt year, im gonna cry too. definitely. she's my group leader. a really beloved person. tho sumtimes she looks as if she hides stuff frm me. ergh.


yeah thts about it. PHEW.

deyi band rocks to the core. like gurmit shouted "DEYI ROCKS!"
awh. love ya, baybeh!


alrite ppl gtg. NDP was fun. hope my face was caught.
lala. haha

kk gtg bye!

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yay! number 7 is here!
more uber cool photos here!

caught a pic of sadman, alloy or whtever his name is..ok, let's call him COFFEE MONK. and one of their classmates.


you kno wht. amanda 1/5 is so damn cute. ive realised it ever since i took photos of her!!


this is her with silsilah, another of my really good friends.


ah. JENNA. candid?


mommy and baby? [weird..]


ryan. tammy. hasanah. smile!


k another one of my besties, JENNIFER. i wish i could read as much as her. but i get bored all the same.


tammy, upside down. made her wait painfully there. my bad? AHAHA. evil.


ahaha! kally took this photo of me and jennifer's asses through a library shelf. cute?


and this is the michael im talking about. =DD

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DION FARTED SO LOUDLY IN THE LIBRARY!!!!!


but anyways these were taken during NAPFA:

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BEFORE NAPFA. at pizza hut
where dion actually embarrased us.