Crazy.

today was BORING.
whatever.
okay but today i AM kinda upset, i have to admit.
i don't feel like pouring it out straightforwardly,
but at least sharing my feelings with the world
would help a little.
right?
yeah.

okay so, i'll just keep it quite private lah.
like, not disclosing names and stuff.

okay so here's what happened today.
as usual, i'm waiting for A to sms me.
wait, wait, wait.
never sms.
so i smsed A first.
okay then A said that he/she was busy lah.
so i'm like, "uh, okay. maybe later."
i waited 6 or 7 hours.
no sms. so i decided to sms A again.
and this time, he/she took a while to reply.
said that he/she just finished being busy.
okaaayyy....
so i waited again for A to sms me after i broke my fast.
i waited for quite long, then A smsed me.
i was DAMN HAPPY.
but then, A suddenly said that he/she was busy in
someplace (you don't wanna know where).
so i gave A some time.
and guess what.
A never smsed me back.
heartbreaking.

sometimes i get really upset 'cos i realise i'm mostly the one who always smses first.
since A never seems to sms me.
i don't wanna blame him/her lah.
but c'mon lah.

and A is always playing about, saying that he/she is in love.
yeah it's funny.
but sometimes you seem so serious, i don't know what to do.
and well i know it's kinda "immature" to A if i get upset over things
he/she does.
it's funny but it hurts. it really does.
there, i've admitted.

and A obviously doesn't have time for me.
it's really heartbreaking.

but
THANK YOU WORLD
for listening to me.
hah! i feel so much better.

i think i'm gonna sms A now.
i guess..
sob.

OKAY A replied, and guess what
he/she doesn't seem like he/she was busy!
he/she is just like,
yada yada and talking talking.
"SMS U TMR."
what? not even a takecare? a goodbye? an "i love you"?
and seriously like i said.
A obviously doesn't have time to talk to me.
a relationship needs care, A !!!

i dont wanna think anymore lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
SCRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMMMM.
MANY MANY thanks to lara for comforting me.

LARA; you'd probably think i'm some kind of crazy person, almost crying over "A". haha. thanks alot, sweety, for comforting me. i just don't know what to do. sigh. =(
i'm just glad you're here. =)