JERK

hey! i read this from a diary! doesnt it say alot..? haha. she doesn't write diary titles, so I'm gonna title it, JERK. for her, with her permission.
but im gonna respect her wishes to not let her name be mentioned.
(all translated to english.)

DEAR DIARY

am i doing the right thing? i know sometimes some people would think a girl like me is somewhat 'despo'. IM NOT! IM NOT! IM NOT!!! go to hell. okay he THINKS he can make me happy just by making up and saying nice things to me. i feel like slapping his face and telling him that all that he's said was JUST TO SAVE THE DAY. he doesn't want me for me. all he thinks about are his friends, his ex-girlfriends, and himself. when i get suspicious, then he'll start bothering me and saying all those sweet BULLSHIT "i love yous". cut the crap, asshole. i hate you. i wanted you so much, but now you're just a fake. i wish i could just place a camera on your back to see where you go, 'cos im sure i'll need it, to show you how much i don't trust you. sometimes when you talk to me, i just want to scream "SHUT THE FUCK UP!". your words are too good to be true. i know you're cheating me. if not, just using me. you're using me JUST BECAUSE AT THE END OF THE DAY, YOU NEED SOMEONE TO LOVE. AND AT THE END OF THE DAY, WHEN YOU'RE SAD AND ALL YOUR FRIENDS ARE NOT FREE, YOU KNOW YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO. AND ALSO, YOU USE ME BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT SOMEHOW i'm weak. and you can treat me like a toy. you don't even hang out with me. I'M LUCKY, THAT I HAVE A LOT OF FRIENDS TO HELP ME TAKE MY MIND OF YOU. BUT AT THE END OF THE DAY, i still love you. and you make me happy. but all around it, you're just a JERK.

@$%&$^*&%#$%$%@%

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after that, massive vulgarities, that of course, cannot be put here.
i really pity her, but now she's stronger.

hey girl, if you're reading this plus the copy of your diary entry,
i want you to know that you're an amazing person.
i love you for who you are and if that "jerk" can't accept you,
then dump him.
don't worry.
it's not your loss.
;)